Wednesday, October 22, 2014
:(
Sometimes I think my soul is hurting. It's not a physical hurting but it carries a certain heaviness in my heart that I can't shake. I know there are many holes in my existence and I can't find anything to mend them. For a while my kids healed all my hurts ... but now it's different. They don't need me like they did when they were little and it has torn open the wounds that were scabbing over. I feel really lost. I feel like my spark has dulled. I'm just sort of rattling around inside this life.
Tuesday, October 21, 2014
Update
Well this seems like a good time to update this blog on what is new with my life. Aside from being lonely there have been a few good things.
Firstly, I did take the computer classes. I took as many as I could get my hands on at SAIT. I worked my schedule around the computer classes and went on my days off. I also went to class then sometimes rushed to work afterwards. It was a lot of planning, running around and a lot of fun. Most of the time my instructor was Ryan and I really enjoyed his classes along with his sense of humor and knowledge. I finished Excel, Powerpoint, Visio and Word. I didn`t get a chance to start Access because I found a new job!
Yes, finally, a new job. I now work at a community health care centre (vaccination clinic) close to home and not too far from my old job. I work with a couple of people I used to work with at switchboard. One lady still works there and is only casual at the clinic. The other lady quit switchboard quite a while ago and is the person that told me about the job at this location. I am very happy I made the move and I`m enjoying it very much. I have my own desk too. There are so many freedoms there that I can`t even begin to list them all. And finally I`m not working late evenings or every other weekend. I only work 8:00 - 4:30 and a maximum of 4 days a week. Every now and then I work 3 days a week. I haven`t escaped weekends totally. I am scheduled to work 4 Saturday`s a year ... one every 12 weeks. So there is no complaining coming from me. I haven`t worked a reception shift on my own yet but at the end of the month I do have two evening shifts where I`ll be working alone and not really liking the idea. But what can a person do
Firstly, I did take the computer classes. I took as many as I could get my hands on at SAIT. I worked my schedule around the computer classes and went on my days off. I also went to class then sometimes rushed to work afterwards. It was a lot of planning, running around and a lot of fun. Most of the time my instructor was Ryan and I really enjoyed his classes along with his sense of humor and knowledge. I finished Excel, Powerpoint, Visio and Word. I didn`t get a chance to start Access because I found a new job!
Yes, finally, a new job. I now work at a community health care centre (vaccination clinic) close to home and not too far from my old job. I work with a couple of people I used to work with at switchboard. One lady still works there and is only casual at the clinic. The other lady quit switchboard quite a while ago and is the person that told me about the job at this location. I am very happy I made the move and I`m enjoying it very much. I have my own desk too. There are so many freedoms there that I can`t even begin to list them all. And finally I`m not working late evenings or every other weekend. I only work 8:00 - 4:30 and a maximum of 4 days a week. Every now and then I work 3 days a week. I haven`t escaped weekends totally. I am scheduled to work 4 Saturday`s a year ... one every 12 weeks. So there is no complaining coming from me. I haven`t worked a reception shift on my own yet but at the end of the month I do have two evening shifts where I`ll be working alone and not really liking the idea. But what can a person do
Sort of Empty Nest
I don't know if it's because I'm PMS'ing or what but I am miserable and bored out of my mind. I've been giving it some thought and since the kids are all grown up I don't really have much to do anymore. The house is quiet and I'm lonely. Jacob is still living at home but he doesn't spend time with me anymore. He is mostly in his room on the computer working on projects or playing games, or face-timing with his girlfriend.
I've been trying to get interested in things. I've thrown myself into computer classes, started a new job and even became a certified manicurist. But I'm still bored. At work I can't wait to get home but once I'm here all I am is lonely and bored. It's crazy I know.
I've been trying to get interested in things. I've thrown myself into computer classes, started a new job and even became a certified manicurist. But I'm still bored. At work I can't wait to get home but once I'm here all I am is lonely and bored. It's crazy I know.
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