I stayed up way too late watching Weeds again last night. Was it ever hard to get up for work this morning! The only good thing about today's getting up was the fact that Jonathan woke up when I did, so I didn't have to get ready quietly and in the dark. He is golfing this morning. It's a cold morning so I hope he doesn't get too chilled and has a good time with Randy.
We finished watching "Weeds" Season Two and I couldn't stop there. We watched the first two shows in season three ... then, dead on my feet, I went to bed. Morning came too quickly.
Jacob stayed at Peter's dad's new place again last night so I didn't get to see him at all yesterday. What is it with Enza and Dave? They always take Jacob for days in a row. Enza is notorious for doing that and now Dave too? I would have said no but I'm working so early today and Jonathan is golfing, I figured it would be a lot more fun for Jacob to hang out with Peter rather than being alone. Well, sort of alone, Jillian sleeps until noon. It was a good call in the long run but I miss seeing him last night.
Jillian went to Chris' house yesterday and had supper ready for him when he got home. Apparently he was totally thrilled about it. He works every other weekend, same weekend schedule as mine. But his hours are much longer working 5:30am - 5:30pm. It's nice Jillian finally cooked for him since he often cooks for her.
So last night before I fell asleep I was thinking about what Steve said when we were having coffee. Apparently I said something that gave him the impression that I wasn't happy. OMG! What I said exactly is beyond me. Maybe he doesn't understand me because he really doesn't know me. I'd hate to think that I have to edit everything I that I say ... that's too much work. Maybe that's why I like hanging out with Penny. She totally gets me. I can say whatever I want ... we can laugh about it ... and get onto another topic. No drama.
Come to think about it. Earlier this summer I emailed Richard to have coffee. He emailed me back saying, "What's wrong? I've known you too long not to know something is wrong." Are you kidding me? My original email said something like, "Hey, do you want to meet for a coffee sometime next week?" How the hell did he interpret that something was wrong? I've known Richard since grade one and clearly he doesn't know shit about me. I emailed him back right away saying there is absolutely nothing wrong, just wanted to go and have coffee. Needless to say, we didn't ever go out for that coffee as no further emails were exchanged after that. Life is too short for drama.
AND, for the record ... I think I'm the happiest person I know. I live with minimal stress ... I have a great family ... cute little almost paid off house ... no debt other than mortgage ... good friends ... sweet dog ... good paying job ... great co-workers. Oh my God ... how can I give people the impression that I am anything but happy? I'm not going to dwell on what's not up to parr ... it's minimal ... I don't worry about it. Everything I'm dreaming about will fall into place. Not just because I want it to, because I'm (and we're) taking active measures to make sure things will happen. It's exciting. Jillian getting into and finishing Nursing (or anything she wants) ... me taking some classes to get the creative side of my brain working again ... paying off the house ... etc. Things out of my control I can't and won't worry about ... life happens ... I've always dealt with it and will again. I'm in a really good spot in my life.
Whew ... got that out of my system!
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