Just Need To Get Motivated ... AGAIN

Today I was working the day shift at Rockyview/Peter Lougheed. I had the yuckiest nights' sleep because I chose to have a very long nap after work and messed up my need for deep sleep during the night. Lesson learned. I work with a lady who often buys the newspaper and reads the daily horoscope out loud to our Supervisor and her co-workers. This morning she read mine and made a comment that it wasn't true. My horoscope made reference to the fact that I would be taking more time to get into shape and take care of myself. She said I didn't need it. Well as sweet as that sentiment is ... yep I do need it.

I've become quite unhappy with me lately ... I've gained some weight and I'm eating horribly. I get down about it and sometimes can't get the energy going to do something about it. It's a total different me than I was months ago when I was going to the gym all the time. And I don't like it at all. Jonathan has signed me up at the YMCA that's close to our house. The boys have a membership there also. I need it and I really like working out, I just don't really like that place yet. My big plan is to go work out in the morning once Jacob has gone to school. Gosh, now all I have to do is just do it. Easier said than done I'm afraid. I know I'll be really proud of myself if I go ... I just have to go. Yikes it's like playing mind games with myself.

Summer is just around the corner and I know I'll be happier if I'm feeling stronger and more active. Then there is the 60km Cancer Walk Penny and I are doing at the end of July. Both are good reasons to get to the gym. Then there is the improved mental outlook and self esteem that will also improve with increased activity. Okay, okay, I'll go ... like it or not ... I'll go.