2013

It's been a long time since I've written.    Perhaps I'll start to write more regularly again in 2013.

 

It's the start of a new year.   A time to start fresh, start a new chapter in life.    But I seem to fall back on old habits too soon, this year is no exception.

 

I didn't make any grand New Years' resolutions.   I only made one.   It was a repeat of the one I made the year before because I had failed so miserably.   I only resolved to have more fun in my life.    Sometimes I think that will be easy and sometimes I don't.

 

One thing I've notice that does stop me from having more fun is the way I perceive things around me.     I've got one example; my former co-worker Sherry.      She quit working with us a while back and I have kept in touch loosely through FB.      She moved a couple of provinces away and although  she has her challenges she is doing well.     Now here's for the weird thing; I'm jealous that she is creating art -- all the time -- every day.   She posts photos of her projects and everyone loves it.    She is even selling it through FB.      I don't know why this is making me crazy but it really is.   Back when we worked together I showed her my art magazines as I do with anyone who wants to look at them.    She was intrigued and took off with the whole idea.   I didn't.    So I'm miserable.     Once again I feel paralyzed not knowing what to do.    Do I jump in?   Will it look like I'm trying to follow in her footsteps?     I'm just afraid.