Not A Great Morning

Well I'm feeling terribly naive, either that or I'm feeling really stupid.    That thanks to my friend Donna.   We are both waiting to hear about the position we applied for at switchboard.   It's a full time posting and we both want it.    Okay, many of us want it.    We are hoping it is between the two of us.   Amber is also in the running but we are hoping that her poor work ethic makes a stronger case for either of us.   We've promised each other that if we heard anything we would tell the other so we wouldn't hear it from other people when we got into work.    Sounded like a good plan.

This morning I open up Facebook and see I have  a message from Donna.   All it says is "congratulations".    I was confused by this because I had no idea how on earth she would know if I got the job before I did.    After all, wouldn't I receive a call from our Supervisor?    I sent her a message saying, "??"  and she responded that she received a rejection letter so she thought I got the job.   I checked the answering machine to find there were no messages left for me.     I checked my work email to see if I had received an email from our Supervisor and there was nothing there either.    All the while I was getting my hopes up that maybe she did hear something and maybe I really do have the full time job.    I was nervous about even hoping.   But hope I did.    I wanted to stop hoping but I couldn't, I wanted it so bad.    All I could think of is how happy I was going to be to make the phone call to Home Care and quit those two other jobs.

Then I checked my FB messages again and she said it was a rejection letter from another job she applied for and not this one.    I was really upset then.    I asked her not to send me any more "Congrats" emails.    She apologised but I still think that's a stupid way to ask someone if they got a job.   What about straight out asking if I heard anything.    If I remember correctly, our agreement was if we heard anything we would let the other person know.    So if I would have found out anything, I would have let her know.     I don't get people.    I'm so stupid.

Weekend Off

I have a weekend off and today I'm too tired to enjoy it.    I worked until 10:45 last night and came home to find Stuart limping around with a sore leg or shoulder.      He had hurt it while I was a work when Chris startled him with the helicopter.   Poor little dog.

He was put in Jacob's bed after I gave him a little doggy pain-killer and after some whining he settled down and went to sleep.  

I stayed up longer than I should have partly because I was nervous wreck for Jillian's test she was writing this morning.    She needed to get 90% to pass and on her first writing she missed it by one question.   She was allowed to write it only twice so I was a mess.  

Then I decided to lay in bed and read for a bit.    I read a chapter in my book that grossed me out so badly that I had to stay awake and read more just to shake it.   So I was up way too late and I'm suffering from it today.

One good thing I did was go out for coffee with Penny this afternoon.  We met at SouthCentre and had a great time talking and shopping around the mall.

Jonathan came back from his trade show in Toronto this morning.   Lucky for him he missed all the bone crushing cold weather we had all week long.   I had a pretty yucky week here in Calgary.   I worked a lot.   And to top it all off this week I had two flat tires in one day.    Not one but two!!     Chris and Jacob came to work to help me out and get the car home.   Then they put winter tires onto my car once it was in the garage and out of the extreme wind chill.    Funny how Jonathan made sure he had winter tires on his car and didn't get them put onto mine.     I guess it wasn't one of his priorities.      Sounds like he had a good time at the trade show.    As much as he complains about it before he leaves he sure has a bunch to brag about once he gets back.   Do I sound jealous ?  I am.

But mostly I'm tired of listening to him say how much he doesn't enjoy it going before he leaves.   Just let me go, you wouldn't hear me complain.

Web Site Highlights for 2011

When I come across a web site I enjoy writing it down is the easiest way to remember them.    I use the back of my daytimer to record everything.

Here is my 2011 list:

http://www.adoptamicrobe.blogspot.com/
http://www.sfgirlbybay.com/
http://www.glorioustreats.blogspot.com/
http://www.howaboutorange.blogspot.com/
http://www.graphicsfairy.blogspot.com/
http://www.foxfires.com/
http://www.someoneoncetoldme.com/
http://www.atcsbylottie.blogspot.com/
http://www.tastememory.com/
http://www.sweetsugarbelle.blogspot.com/
http://www.kimayres.blogspot.com/
http://www.jillstodayisaw.blogspot.com/
http://www.judyperez.blogspot.com/
http://www.chickenblog.com/
http://www.craftside.typepad.com/
http://www.mistertoast.blogspot.com/
http://www.amusingplanet.com/

Snow Arrived Last Night

Winter did arrive over night.   It's snowy and it's cold.   It's also January 15th so I don't feel like complaining about it.   Our weather has been great up until this morning.   Still we are very lucky!

I'm working again, sitting here at Switchboard looking out the window at all the snow and wind blowing the branches of the trees.    Work itself is slow at best.   The people I'm working with are not my best bunch to spend the day with but aside from the obvious pain in the neck working to my right, it's okay.     It would be better if the lady across from me would stop picking at her face though.   Okay, writing that almost made me laugh a bit.     It's easy to write things you would never say out loud.

Last night we met Jared, Jordan, Jaylee and Jude at a sushi restaurant on Centre Street for dinner.   It was really nice to see the kids again.    I was stuck by what a good dad Jared is.    We were only there for a little while but he had taken both kids out without Julie (she was out with her sister) and was so calm and collected.    Jonathan ended up picking up the tab and complaining about it later once we were home.   Both Jordan and Jared offered to put money towards the bill but Jonathan waved them off, so he shouldn't complain at all.   It was a point I mentioned hoping he would be quiet about it.

2012!

I can't believe that I haven't written since November!    I don't think I've ever gone so long without writing.    Christmas and New Year's Eve have come and gone along with the usual stress and strife. 

I've made a New Year's Resolution to try to have more fun in 2012.   Exactly how I'll make that happen hasn't come to me yet.

My mom came to Calgary this Christmas and stayed with us from December 19 - 31.    It was a long time, maybe a little too long.    Mom and Jonathan butt heads on and off and it's a constant source of stress for me.    Mom screwed up my computer while she was here and caused a fatal error in the start up system and I had to get Kurt to help us with the repair.   Thankfully he was able to fix up the computer and all he wanted was a Tim Horton's Gift Certificate.   I gave him a card for $50.00 and I'm hoping that was good enough.  He saved my sanity and that's worth more than $50.00.

I'm convinced my sister is a lunatic because now she won't talk to me.   It's a long story but I'll sum it up by saying Jillian forgot she agreed to babysit for her on December 30 and was scheduled to work that evening.    I decided to email Teresa (since it was too late in the evening to call) and asked her to phone me when she got the message.   That happened December 27.   She didn't phone and sent me an email instead telling me she was too mad to call.   I emailed back saying I only wanted her to call so we could arrange babysitting without Jillian.   She disregarded my email and all the ones I've sent since.     What the hell is wrong with my F'ing family??   I'm done trying to contact her and get this whole thing behind us.    Now if she wants to talk to me again she will have to contact me.   I can't stand the shit and abuse I get from my family and/or relatives.

But other than that, our winter this year has been more than great.    We've had some snowfall but the temperatures have been well above normal.   We did our Christmas shopping wearing only sweaters and there aren't too many years where that is even possible.    They say we are in for some more seasonably cold winter weather starting tomorrow.    From the blue sky and sunshine it doesn't seem possible but who knows what can happen over night.   Either way, it's been great and if Old Man Winter wants to make an appearance it's all good. 

Jonathan is headed to Toronto on Tuesday for Acklands' annual Trade Show and won't be back until Saturday sometime.   So he'll be gone for 4 days.    He says he isn't looking forward to it but I am.   I need a little bit of a break.   I feel like I should be the one that goes off somewhere, in fact, I wish I was the person that was going somewhere for a change.

I'm in the same old rut as I've been for half my life.    I don't know what I want to do with what I have left here in this life.    I'm almost 100% sure that I will be quitting my two jobs over at Home Care.   I've been trying to get my rate of pay there to match what I'm making here at Switchboard but that doesn't look like that's going to happen.    My next shift is on Wednesday, January 25th and I'll work that shift.   I have a Letter of Portability that I'm going to leave with my Supervisor that evening and then take it from there.   If the rate of pay doesn't change the next thing I'll do is quit (giving my two weeks notice).

That is one thing I know I'm going to do.    Another thing is a full time position opened up here at Switchboard because Sandi has retired and gone casual.   Now I'm not fooling myself that I'm in the running for this but I do have yet another interview scheduled with Kathe on January 19th.   I'll go through the motions of the interview.   Shevaughn or someone else will slide into that position at PLC/RGH and it will go down the ranks until Donna ends up with the left over position and someone will fill hers.      I can't even hope that will be me either.    

So I don't have any big hopes and dreams for 2012.    I feel like I'm in survival mode and just barely hanging on to say the least.

This Makes Me Happy - Part Two

This is a salad I made the other day.   The recipe was inspired by a recipe I found in the current Clean Eating magazine.   I made a few additions and left a few things out.

My additions to the recipe were spinach and zucchini.  I left out the jalapeno pepper, orange peppers, salt and pepper.   The jalapeno peppers would have been a welcome addition but I didn't have any fresh ones in the house.   

This salad made me happy whole day.    I was happy when I found the recipe.   I was happy making it.   I took it to work and it made me smile every time I took a bite.

I posted this photo on my Facebook page because I was so over-the-top happy with it.   Jodie called it food porn.    She's funny and that makes me happy too.

End of My Long- Weekend Off

Well this is Sunday evening.   I've had the whole weekend off including Remembrance Day on November 11th.   That is something that doesn't happen often for me.     It ended up being nothing special though.     I wanted to get away for a night or two to Banff and use up the gift certificate my co-workers bought for me when I got married last December.  But needless to say, Jonathan didn't want to go.    It's not that he had anything special to do this weekend or made any better plans or anything.    I don't get him and I'm getting pretty mad about it.

I did have my second job interview and the guy that did the second interview was incredibly nice.  Too nice, from the few minutes I spent with him.    He's easy going from what I could gather and I think for sure, that I didn't get the job.     The person who he interviewed before me was in the office longer than I was.    And I was a nervous wreck so my interview wasn't too slick.

I also had my doctor's appointment to go over all my test results.   Seems everything is good ... really good actually.   WTF?     Why do I feel so awful and why on earth is my heart beating like a crazy spazz?     Oh, I don't get it at all.   I did go to have a second x-ray done on my chest because an area of interest wasn't clearly visible on first x-ray.   But the doctor says he doesn't think it's anything and didn't even bother booking another follow-up appointment with me to go over the results.    He says if there is anything, he'll call me.     My guess is that I won't be hearing from him.    But what on earth was going on with my heart?    Why did I feel like I was going to keel over?    Oh it's so stupid.    It's as stupid as when I took Stuart to the vet because he was having seizures and all they did was do a whole bunch of tests to tell me they don't know why he's convulsing.

So that's it for my big updates and big let downs.    I work like a freak for the next week so I don't think I'll be able to write too often but I'll try.