Things That Make Me Happy - Part Three

A page out of my book.    Thought I'd share this page because it's one of my favorites.   It sums up what I would like if I lived on a small hobby farm.   I had collected the photos from magazines and pasted them into this spiral book.    Every page is different but this one made me smile today.

Afraid to Get Started

I won't gripe and groan about my continued lack of enthusiasm for this running venture. I've managed to put off running, in fact, it's starting to feel like I'm avoiding it all together. When I resolve to get going the next morning I wake up feeling awful (awful enough to go back to bed) and avoid the gym completely.
I've gone so far as to collect inspirational running and motivational quotes and read them before bed hoping to spur myself and enthusiasm along. Nothing has worked. Then yesterday morning I get cramps and then the obvious follows. Needless to say no running was done yesterday.

Am I ready to give up this notion of running? I'd like to think I haven't. Looking at my daytimer there are opportunities to get this started as early as next Monday morning. Both Monday and Tuesday I work the afternoon / evening shift leaving me both mornings to get started. Wednesday and Thursday I don't work at all (yet) so I have the possibility of having the days off. Friday I'm working an early shift. That leaves me a possible 4 mornings - barring any notion of being called in. I really should get it started. The rational part of my brain knows that once I've started at the gym I'll really love it. The part of my brain that holds me back is the section of my brain that is locked in the "fear of failure" mode. Now if I could only convince myself that true failure would be not starting at all.
I have to keep telling myself that. True failure would be not starting at all.

Thankful Day

Today I'm thankful for:
being able to go back to sleep this morning
feeling better after a good sleep in
the whole day off
sunshine and wet snowflakes
Deerfoot Trail
the Mexican grocery store
Led Zeppelin

Info From Kurt

Her name is Beverly Pilon, phone number is 403.221.9000. She is the owner of CRS Merrill Insurance and great lady to talk to. She is part of my breakfast group (BNI Executive chapter)

New Adventure -- Half Marathon

Well it looks like I've made the commitment to actually try to run this half marathon on May 27, 2012 ... 105 days from today.    Do I think I can do it?     Hmmm, I want to say yes and mean it but I'm not so confident at this moment in time.  

The one thing I have to do is to get started tomorrow and see where I stand right now.   I work at 9:00am until 2:45pm and afterwards I'm going to the gym and test myself a little.    It's been ages since I was at the gym and truthfully I know I'm in for an ass-kicking big time.      Am I afraid ?   You bet!     Do I sense and failure in the future?   Yeah, sort of.   Am I going to try anyway?    You bet!

Don't fear failure so much that you refuse to try new things.  The saddest summary of a life contains three discriptions: could have, might have and should have.
~ Unknown

Whitney Houston Dies

Sitting here at work and just heard that Whitney Houston died today.    It's not really a shock only because of the life style she lived.      But it's sad all the same.   She is the same age as I am.   Or I am the same age she is ... either way you look at it.   She seems to young to have died.

Maybe I'm morbid but I had to look up other famous types born in 1963.   Some people I knew other people surprized me somewhat.
Johnny Depp
Brad Pitt
Nicolette Sheridan
James Denton
Vanessa Williams
Quentin Tarantino
Elisabeth Shue
Helen Hunt
Lisa Kudrow
Mike Myers
Jennifer Beals
Greg Kinnear
John Stamos
Phoebe Cates
Benjamin Bratt
Tatum O'Neal
Edie Falco
Seal
Dave Foley
Conan O'Brien
Michael Jordan
Coolio
Lisa Rinna
Kathy Ireland
Lars Ulrich
James Hetfield
George Michael
Julian Lennon

Another Working Weekend

Saturday, February 11 ... 4:32 pm ... working until 11:00pm.   Well at least working is keeping me off Facebook so I can't get myself in a knot about anything I see on-line.   ;)

I wanted to give you a quick update about what happened with the casual Home Care position. 

On Monday, February 6 I did phone Angela and spoke to her regarding the pay rate.   She was nice about it but still questioned the whole Letter of Portability insisting we shouldn't have access to it because it isn't supported in the collective agreement.      So I wasn't hoping for too much at this point.    She went on to say that in order for me to get the amount I'm receiving here at Switchboard I would be getting a promotion and added that I would be making 3% more.    3% more??   At Home Care??    I'm still stunned but part of me won't believe it until I see it.    And I'm getting the retroactive pay for the difference.   I figured it out to be just under $600.00.    I'm still shocked and a little stunned.    That took more time than I thought it would take and the outcome is better than I thought it would be.     I'm so glad I did persue it and not let it go as she has suggested.      So I'm not quitting ... not yet anyway.

One of Those Days

Ever have one of those days? I didn't have a bad day exactly but this evening I was checking out Facebook and showed Jonathan a photo of someone I went to school with and had mentioned that he is looking so old now. That was mean of me but I was sort of shocked and just blurted it out.

Then he asked me to check out one of his old girlfriends' profile photo. Not that it was new either, he had asked me to look her up once or twice before and I've never minded mainly because it was so many years ago and she was older than him, meaning she is older than me. What do I have to worry about? Her profile photo showed her looking a little over done but one thing I did notice was her security settings were off. I was able to view her photos. I did and one of the photos was her standing in a bikini looking young and very fabulous. She wrote about the photo, "Jon took this picture, remember him, he was pretty cute, blonde and younger and a great musician among other things!" I showed him because I like to think I'm above being all jealous about things that happened a million years ago. Guess who is playing his guitar now?

It's just been one of those days.

Movie Afternoon

Today was Superbowl Sunday and today was also the day that Shevaughn and I planned to see the movie "The Iron Lady" at Chinook Centre.    Pat was going to come along with us but in the end she was offered an overnight shift so she stayed home to get some sleep to prepare for it.

I thought the movie was good but it wasn't what I had expected.   Meryl Streep was wonderful and really did a great job but the movie overall seemed a little sad.   It focused on her mental state after her husband passed away and that's too bad.    She accomplished so much it's a shame that's what they chose to focus on.

But I'm glad I saw it.

Home Care Update ... Almost

Briefly talked to my Home Care Supervisor on Friday.   She didn't have time to discuss any specifics with me but asked me to call her on Monday.    I agreed to call her Monday morning and she let me know that it was good news.   Good News?   Really?    So does that mean I won't be giving my notice then?    ha ha ha ... only time will tell I suppose.    I think it's nice that she didn't leave me wondering all weekend about it.    That much is good.     Since I don't know the details I will remain cautiously optimistic.

Working Again Tonight and Happy??

I'm at work again this evening.   It's not a regular shift for me, it was a trade or a picked up shift.   Either way I'm here and it's been a great evening.   The time is just flying by at break-neck speed.   That makes me sort of happy.    Really I've been happy for a few days now.    What I'm attributing to is the fact that I've recently started taking B vitamins, a B 100 complex to be exact and I think it has changed my mood.   Shocking, I know !!   That's the only explanation I have for this feeling of euphoria.  Yep, that's what I'm calling it, euphoria.   

Now not everything is going swell overall.   I still haven't heard about the job posting here at switchboard and my other supervisor over at Home Care continues to string me along regarding the rate of pay I've asked for.    There is even a big screw up with our home insurance regarding our garage and starting today we have zero coverage for the stupid structure.   It's a long story and it starts with Jonathan phoning them 6 months ago regarding a question for a roof repair.     Things like this would normally throw me but I'm not in my usual state of panic or worry.    Funny I know.

I'm going to call my Home Care supervisor on Friday when I'm here at work at see what's up. I'm 100% fully prepared to tender my resignation on Friday if she isn't going to pay me the same wage I'm earning here at switchboard. It only seems fair to me. AND ... I don't love it over there so what do I care ?