Beer Commercial

Gosh, what do you do when you are watching TV and a commercial comes on that makes sense?    I mean really makes sense.    See the commercial here.    I think this really took me off guard for some really valid reasons.     As I was watching I was answering "no" to almost every question posed.

 

The commercial's wording is something like this:

If there is a single undeniable truth about life is you only get one shot at living it.
So the question is ... How have you lived?
Will have have been scared enough?
Will you have done all the things you've set out to do?
Said all the things you wanted to say?
Will you have laughed enough?
Loved enough?
Broken enough hearts and had your heart sufficiently broken?
Will have have seen the world?
Watched enough sunsets and sunrises?
Will you have lived life on your own terms?
Will you have regrets or will you have lived an extraordinary life?

The only one I could say "yes" to was the question regarding having your heart sufficiently broken. Now how sad it that?

I think it's pretty sad.

 

Pondering

|I've been thinking a lot lately about my life.   What have I learned along the way?

 

In my teens, I wish I didn't worry so much about fitting in.

In my 20's, I wish I wasn't so afraid to take chances.

In my 30's I wish I would have taken a little more time for me and not try to please everyone.

In my 40's I wish I would have been able to say "no" without feeling guilt.

 

At the end of this year I will be turning 50.    It's almost hard to say.   I don't feel 50 and other than this grey hair, I don't really think I look 50.    Judy says 50 is the new 30.   Maybe that's a good way to look at it.   

 

I feel like I still have so much to do.    Truthfully, I think I have too much to do and not enough time to do it in.   It's a shame.  

 

The goal perhaps is just to be happy.   But I'm failing miserably at that too.   

Dream

I've been dreaming very vividly for a while now. The night before last I had the strangest dream just before waking.

 

At first, I thought it was a dream about my heart only because I saw myself wearing a holter monitor. But as it turns out it was mostly likely a dream about work and a decision I will have to make. Now exactly what that decision will be isn't clear to me right now. I do know that we will be increasing our points.  But what will come of the point increase and when isn't clear because a new schedule has been released for April  and May and nothing has changed on it. Sort of par for the course around here. It's too bad really.

 

 

Everything here at work is causing so much stress that I have to really wonder if it's worth it all.   I'm sure that's much of the meaning behind the dream.   It's all stress induced.

Back to Work

I'm here at work 45 minutes early for my shift. Not because I'm a keener or anything. This morning I let Jillian have my car for her practicum. She'll have it tomorrow also, so I'll be here early one more time.

Yesterday my Supervisor told me to send her an email if I was interested in a 0.7FTE that will be opening up here at Switchboard. Of course I sent the email right away but I also know that my chances of getting this position are next to non-existent. Things haven't gone in my favor at this place and I don't expect them to now.

I have been off work for over two weeks. Yesterday was my first day back and I found it quite draining (even though it wasn't a full shift). And when I got back I heard about even more policy changes that make me wonder what the heck is really going on here and it leaves me to ask, do I really want to work here more?

Last week I applied at WestJet for a position in reservations. I know tons of people apply for these jobs and I probably won't get called for an interview, but I just had to try my luck ... again.

50th Birthday Party in the Hood

Went to Trent and Tracy Ronak's 50 birthday party last night with Penny.    It was a pretty big party at the Pembrooke community centre close to the old neighbourhood.    It was good seeing the two guys again.   I have to admit I didn't really talk to Tracy and he didn't seem to remember me too much.    But that's okay, Trent is the person that invited me.   He turned out to be a really nice guy.    Sounds like he and his girlfriend/wife? have gone on some pretty interesting adventures including living in the states for a extended period last year.    Sounds like they've been to many cool places.

 

Needless to say, that has got me thinking ... again.    No this can't be good can it?     Penny and I were sitting there more or less saying "what the hell?"       It really makes you think about what you've done with your life.

 

And it's not like I'm trying to compare my life with just theirs.    It seems to be all around me. Somewhere along the way I've put aside my dreams and I don't think I want to do that any more.  

 

I'm glad I went last night, it's so nice seeing people that were a part of my life while I was growing up.    

     

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