Wedding Plans

Today when I went out with Penny for a coffee, we stopped in at a jewelery store at the mall where she had spotted the most beautiful engagement ring.   She had showed it to me before (last week I think) and this time she put it on hold.    She wants Robin to make a committment and buy it for her.    Of course she also wants to get married but she says she's not in a big rush for that.    We walked around and talked about it and jokingly made plans ... little plans, things like where and when.  ha ha,  okay they weren't so little I guess.   She mentioned she'd like to get married on her parent's anniversary which is June 29th.   And it falls on a Saturday in 2013.   That's pretty good don't you think?  She also wants to get married right on the farm possibly in the airplane hanger.     

It was all really fun to talk about and I hope it comes true for her.   It would be great for one of us to get a nice wedding.

Easter Weekend

Back at work again this afternoon.   It's Good Friday so that means a stat holiday and time and a half (I'm happy about that).    I'm going to be working all weekend, 6:45am both Saturday and Sunday.   Today I had the luxury of sleeping in.    I also went out for coffee with Penny before work so that made for a nice day all around.

Today is the first day my mouth isn't sore and hurting so another good thing  :).

Second Opinion

My jaw is still sore from that stupid appointment.   The scrapes inside my mouth are almost better but some of the worst ones are still healing up.    My face looks better though, thank goodness!

I'm pretty freaked out about everything still.   I've sent an email to get another consultation done with an orthodontist in Midnapore and hopefully I'll hear back from them soon so I can set up another appointment.     Jody from work actually recommended her so I'll check it out.

The one thing this has done for me is made me realize just how insecure I am about my face/ jaw/ mouth ... it's really put it under a microscope for me.    It's sort of like picking scabs, just opening old wounds.     Part of me thinks I do need surgery because I've felt that I've needed it since I was young.    Something just hasn't felt right with my teeth and jaw for as long as I can recall.    So it's not that I want to hear "oh you don't need surgery", it's just that I need someone else to confirm it so I won't just think I'm doing it because I'm being insecure about my looks.   

I'm hoping I go into this next appointment and really like the people and the office.   All I want is to be comfortable and feel secure and confident that I am getting good information from them.

Orthodontist

The past few days I've had a lot to think about.   I went to the orthodontist our dentist recommended last Thursday and he recommends surgery for my lower jaw to correct my bite.    I left there feeling pretty upset about the whole thing, my head was pounding and I was quite miserable.

The next day while I was working at Home Care I called the office again and scheduled another appointment to get impressions made for the oral surgeon.   Once the impressions are sent to them, they call me and arrange an appointment.    I have so many questions and talking to them will help me make a decision about the whole thing.

Today was my actual appointment for the molds to be made.    The young girl who did the impressions was nice but it was a total gong show.   The mold she made on my lower jaw literally got stuck, the suction created by the mold was hard to remove.    I was in pain as she tried to remove it.   She finally gave up and asked another girl for help.    After a lot of tugging and pulling she managed to get it off.    I was left with a mark on my face below my lip on the right side.   Truthfully, I didn't know it was there.  My whole mouth was so sore and inside it was torn up a bit because of the molds themselves.    Jonathan noticed it the minute I walked in the door and asked what happened.    I was shocked when I saw it.   Now it looks more like a bunch of broken blood vessels instead of an actual bruise.    So that wasn't the best appointment.

Owl City - Fireflies

The funeral for Sherry was on Friday.   It was a heartbreaker to say the least.   Jacob and I went by ourselves even though Jonathan had the day off.     Jon ended up driving Jillian to her practicum over at the Foothills Hospital instead.

They played a song called "Fireflies" by Owl City.   Funny how a song I've never heard before has been the only song on my mind since.     I found it on You Tube and replayed it dozens of times.    Where it broke me up before, now I love hearing it.   Funny how that is.

The funeral itself was very long and touching.   We sat beside Bernadette and Peter in the second row.  I was the only one of the four of us to cry.  I just didn't hold it together very well at all.    There were more people there than they had planned for and many people were left standing along the sides and in the back   The reception afterwards was packed but I think the family appreciated the out-pouring of support.    For that reason alone I was very glad to have been there.

Broken Hearted

Last Monday after work I heard the news from Enza that Sherry L. passed away on Saturday, March 17, 2012.    What a complete surprise, I was in total shock.    I didn't even know that she had been sick.    I told Jacob and he was upset and cried.   When Jillian got home we told her and she also cried.  No one can believe it.    Yesterday I heard (again from Enza) that she was only sick 3 months with a cancer diagnosis.   They took her home on Friday so she could die at home.  She passed away with her husband and kids by her side.     It just breaks my heart.   The kids are young, only 16 and 18.   I can't even imagine what they are going through.   Today I was looking at her memorial photos on-line and cried my eyes out.     I was sad for her, her husband and I was sad for their kids.   She was only one year older than me ... it's too young.   The kids are too young to be without their mother too.

It just breaks my heart.